With A Little Help From My Friends

Guidance

© Jesi Manatrey

Some things are just too big For us to over see Some things are just impossible For us to ever be These things are not us They're just someone living inside We really are just teenagers Who have a hard time with our pride This is w

ho we all are We’re a different kind of group Sometimes we might do things That will through you through a loop But that’s how we are Messy and unstable Maybe we just need Some

one to guide us to the table.

I began with a poem that i am going to use for class to describe how we all feel a

t some point in our lives! Life throws so much at you, you cant always deal with it on your own. The picture above if from a church activity with another church in the area. To be honest i didn't really want to go at first ya know just nerves i guess, but can i tell you i haven't been so moved in one night in my life! At the worship service around midnight, the youth pastor from the other church had a message on how God knows us, all of the good, and all of the bad of course! We did an activity where he gave us a piece of paper with a few questions about everything he talked about, but it came very deep for me. We all have things that we wish had never happened and that night i could feel His arms around me as i cried for forgiveness.

The person who came to my side though that night was my youth pastor. Her and i have become more of friends, which at times makes me wonder. I don't want us being friends to interfere with her having adult friends in the church. I will say haw much i do appreciate her being there for me all of the time! It became apparent to me that night at the lock in how much having a friend your age in a youth setting can effect the experience. I know she was having a blast with all of the chaperons and likewise i was having a blast with the youth. I did give her a bit of crap for it at first, more like teasing saying "go hang out with your adult friends" or something like that which was very inappropriate on my part. But right when the tears came as i sat and cried to God she came over and tried to comfort me. There was so much emotion in me so much i wanted to tell her. I couldn't bring myself to do it, until last night. I told her everything, all of the pain and suffering. You know how good it feels to be able to confide in someone who is older than you? That can help you see past the the small stuff! I am so so so so so GRATEFUL for our interesting friendship.

To finish, the show is going AWESOME! I love the cast and crew! You should all plan to come see us on November 12th 2011 at the Palace Theater, with one show at 2 and one at 8. Ticters are $25, and so worth it!

God Bless!!!

Growing Pains

Life has gotten so crazy since I posted on here last! I finished out my year at Fieldcrest and to be honest I am so happy to be free of all the drama and "stuff". As i finished my freshman year in High School I was ready to give up singing and preforming forever! So I spent my summer working as a babysitter and a Counselor In Training at Camp Tippecanoe to try and find myself again, but i couldn't find myself there. I did learn A LOT though! Some was good some was bad, lost relationships with many of my old friends but made some amazing new ones! God was working in so many ways this summer! Well last night I found out someone I am very close to is moving back to her "Big city" where I can clearly see her heart is forever! I won't lie, when i got the message i did cry for quite awhile last night. I am so happy for her though that she is going back and will be happy!

So, I have been so blessed to have my director, teacher and dear friend Deb with me even though everything these past few months and all through 7th grade. You could see through all of her pictures from her trip to New York that she was truly at peace with herself!

I met Deb in 2008 at an acting class that my voice teacher recommended me for. What do I remember from that class? Deb asked us "when did the bug bite you?" I thought she was crazy so I gave so whacked up answer. Now i can tell you, that day was the day the bug bit me! I've been infected with the need to be on stage! Her and i bonded over this infection, and she has been there for me ever since. Even in my most dramatic moments there she is, waiting with open arms and ready to help with what ever she can. I am eternally grateful for that.

Two months ago she texted me and asked why i wasn't auditioning for her show and i came up with some silly excuse! Once we got into a deeper conversation she pulled me in, because i remembered how much i missed being on stage, and if anyone could help me it would be her. After my audition she told me I totally nailed the song and I finally felt it, everything I have been working for. Acceptance in the theater world, I did something right. High school theater is vicious, there's always someone better than me no matter what i do. Not here, not now! So now i am back in business as an actress currently in the show "An Old Fashioned Canton Christmas." as a lead family member that plays on November 12th at the Palace Theater!

So I'm growing up, slowly but surly as we all are. I just have to keep my head up and just keep believing and "Dare To Fail" as Deb says! I will miss you tons Deb, you may never know how much i appreciate you but have done so much for me! I will have an excuse to go to New York! You have made a difference in so many peoples lives! Love ya!

NEW YORK HERE I COME!