Going Through the Motions: Renewing the Relationship

Last night I had the opportunity to go with youth group the Cleveland to see the Winter Jam Tour. We got there a little later than we expected, so it took about an hour for all of us to find a seat, but we weren't all together. I sat with Ash and Lauren behind the stage, which wasn't horrible but wasn't great either.

I we got to hear 6 or 7 bands. Right before intermission the had sort of a 15 minute message about how Jesus is the light of the world and lights the darkness. He also talked about how it is easy to say your Christian and make it all be lip service but no action behind it. This of course wasn't the first time I had heard it, but in a way that I didn't see right away his words were joined with a very strong presence of Christ I have not felt in a long time. I was not at that moment ready to admit his presence so I shrugged it off as if there was nothing there.

So, later that night Sanctus Real came out and started playing. I sat for half of there performance, but in the middle of it I stood up and raised me arms and head to the sky singing along to Christ. At that moment I was ready to admit He was in that place and he was holding me in his arms whispering into my heart to come back to him. Sanctus Real ended with their song "Forgiven" which I knew was going to make me very emotional, and I was right but not only me but a friend very close got a bit emotional during this song as well. This friends shared a lot with me and I think I really understand her love for our Savior now.

The night was coming to a close and we were leaving during Skillet. Not before though they played a song that had me wanting to fall to my knees. "The Last Night", if you know anything about my story and the song you know exactly why I got emotional. For about the first minute of the song i had to hold onto my friend for dear life or I was going to literally loose it. I felt very close to Jesus last night, closer than I've felt in a long time.

So I got home at about 11:30ish but i wasn't tired at all and I knew what I had to do. After telling everyone goodnight and turning off everything in my room I laid there in silence for about 20 minutes. Soon I has crying begging Jesus to become a part of my life again and be my best friend. I asked Christ to come back into my life after months of lying to myself and Him. I have been been a total lip service Christian these past few months, changing my standards for what other people thought of me. I'm hear to clear it up and say no more, Christ is back to the center of my life! <3